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Fri, 26 Nov 2004 00:25:03 GMT

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NEW NAME. add me 1st, please. ♥
too many people to start adding.

Boo [hoo], you whore.

Thu, 25 Nov 2004 04:33:37 GMT

I had to change my journal because my photobucket's bandwidth exceeded. Damnit. So. Whatever.

But on the better side...

ME & DREW ARE BACKKKKK!!!!!!!!!! ♥♥♥♥♥♥
Fuck yes.

I hung out with Ashley todayyy ♥ Yes, so grand. As always. Me, Ashley, Josh, Brandon & Brian or however you spell his name went up to Little Caesars & got two pepperoni pizzas. So good. & Only 5 bucks each. So, as usual, we sat out front & ate it. Ashley was new to the whole thing, so we had to get her used to it ;]

Then we just hung out outside.

Then around 10:30 or so, Drew shows up & I had to go get Ashley's stuff from my house so I went & got it before she had to leave. Then after she left, Drew asked me for a ride home on my handle bars on my bike. So I got near his house & he wanted to talk to me. [I hadn't called him/talked to him for two days straight].

Turns out he missed me & was wondering if I missed him & still liked him... FUCK YEAH I missed him! Haha. So yeah. That's basically how it went.

I am so. fucking. happy.

Happy Thanksgiving ♥♥♥

xMe RiCk JaMeSx: bc im happy as hell bc u and drew are back toghter bc yall were a good ass couple and i couldnt see drew with ne body else but you

Edit : I made a new journal. I'll let you know what it is when I'm finished with it. So be ready, ha. ♥

Tue, 23 Nov 2004 19:56:07 GMT

Today was boring.

Nothing more than that. I hate when I try to listen to music on the bus & people keep trying to talk to me. Danny asked me if I had a cigarette. ?!?!?!?!. When the fuck have I ever smoked cigarettes. & then I had " I <\3 ****. * " [but they weren't stars] written on my hand & Adam & Danny were like "What's 1 4 3 ****. * mean?" & all this shit & I was like "It's not a fucking 143". I was getting pissed off. Whatever.

I feel like shit today. Back to my old ways again I guess. I need to meet someone, & soon.

Where are you Adam Lazzara.

I'm always listening to the music on my myspace ;x

Mon, 22 Nov 2004 19:59:22 GMT

Ha. My mom called me a sleazebag last night because I still want to go back out with Drew &I'm still hanging out with him . . . even though she had a different boyfriend every couple weeks when she was my age & cheated on every single boyfriend she ever had except two guys. Hm. Yeah Sleazebag.

So yeah. Anyways. Today was cool. My guidance counselor called me down to her office to say good job for my report card grades & she gave me some cooooookies ♥

Then in lunch me & Josh drew huge penises on the lunch table & a security guard walked by a few minutes later & was like "... who's got the markers" & we were like "uuhh that was here when we got here". Hahahaaa I was so scared.

Then on the way home I wrote "PHIL KELLEY LOVES PENIS" on a piece of paper in red marker & stuck it on the window with Josh's gum. Yes it was funny.

Me, Emily, Phil & Aiko ♥
Soo cute.

& you know it's not so easy when you're all alone.

Sun, 21 Nov 2004 18:29:04 GMT

Wow. Today was fucking fantastic. I hung out with Drew today for a couple of hours because I thought I had to go to my dad's at 1.

I went to his house & we were all happy & getting along & shit. I loved it ♥ He called this morning & actually asked me to hang out. I haven't been so happy in a long time.

But. I know he still doesn't like me or something. We were laying down & shit & I was like "...isn't this kind of wrong since we're not going out?" & he said "we both love eachother, so it's ok" & then I was like "well didn't you say that you didn't "love me like a girlfriend, but just as a really good friend"?" & he was like "no. I love you".

But when I went to call my house, I used to be on the automatic thingy, you know, if you hold down a number [my mind's going blank], & I was number 2, but when I held it down, it went to Megan fucking Lawyer's phone. <\33

?? Ok. Confusing as a biatch. But I don't care. I'm just happy I was with him. Why does he tell me he loves me.

I can smell his scent on me. :(

♥ Eeeeeer, I don't know what I'm doing today.

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idntevnkno: i think you and drew are like made for eachother . . even though i h avnt liek known yall or anything
idntevnkno: its just in pics it looks right

One last thing. I just wanted to thank everyone who's helped me through all this pitiful shit I've been going through. Yeah, I should be over it by now, but I'm not. & I wanted to say thanks to those who have sat & talked to me about it. It makes me feel a lot better to know that people genuinely care. Ashley, Rachel, my LJ friends♥, Matt, Brittany, Josh, James, Randy, & Aiko. Everyone. I ♥ my friends. So much.

I know you well enough to know you never loved me.

Sat, 20 Nov 2004 23:22:49 GMT

Ugh, boys are confusing. Especially when you love them.

Last night I talked to Drew on the phone. & I was just checking to see if he read my .44 caliber love letter straight from my heart ;] haha & when I called, he was reading it. So it was quiet for a little while on the phone. & I kept asking if he wanted me to let him go & hang up & he kept saying no. Hm?

So after he read it, he was talking to me like old times. Maybe because he was "so stoned", but I don't know. It made me happy. He kept saying how I should come over & hang out. We were supposed to today, but he said he's going to Vaughan's hotel party?? Whatevs. Then before we hung up he said "I love you".

Goshhhh :\ But I have to go to my dad's tomorrow & so Drew said I can go to his house after school on Monday. I'm exxxcitedddd!!

I just don't want to get hurt doing all this, & I'm sure I will. Oh well.

I'm getting paid soon from helping my step dad with the cabinets & I'm going to buy some people Christmas presents & stuff. I have to get Drew & Ashley something for sure ♥ Let me know what you want you guyyyyys.

Now it's time for me to strangle my brothers & wallow in my own self pity. I might update later.

Fri, 19 Nov 2004 19:52:11 GMT

Eeeeee. Ashley's _rainymondays coming over today & I'm pretty sure she's spending the night. ♥ I'm exxxcitedddd! I loff hanging out with her :] She makes me happy.

Anywho. I wrote Drew a 4 page [7 sides!] note / .44 caliber love letter straight from my heart today. Haha. Yeah it's um interesting. & I have yet to give it to him.

Wow. Today's going to be weird :\

Oh, & DEF MOTHER FUCKING JEF, stop IMing my away msg saying some bullshit about Drew. I can write whatever the fuck I want in here & if you don't like it, DON'T FUCKING READ IT!!!!! I know Drew doesn't like me & that nothing I do or say will make him like me again, & I'm not trying to do that, so shut the fuck up before I punch your gay ass in the mother fucking face. I'm sick of your bullshit.

♥

edit : I watched Mean Girls for the first time last night. Go me.

Thu, 18 Nov 2004 18:42:51 GMT

Ok, so I'm making this thing public again for a little while. Unless it gets out of hand. Because I might want to talk loads of crap about someone & if they're not an el jay friend, then what's the point? So. Ok. I came home early from school today & I'm eating a sub. My mom said she's going to get me a job at Subway. Yay. Subway owns.

Anyways. I'm totally hanging out with Ashley today. I'm freaking stoked. & yes, I just said stoked ♥

Tomorrow is the SFN show, & I get to see Aaron. Whoooo I'm excited :D

Oh, I got 5 B's & only 1 D on my report card. Suck it! :)

I really need one.

Public shit <\3

Tue, 16 Nov 2004 19:42:57 GMT

Fuck anything I ever said about me & Drew being together again. He doesn't like me anymore. "He still loves me" & "we're still friends", but he doesn't want to be with me anymore. It got "old". I guess he just likes Megan now, & that's all there is to it.

I need to find someone else now. It will never be the same.

So Drew, if you're reading this, it's been awesome knowing you & being with you these past 2 years. I love you. Always will. You were my first & always will be. I love you. Have a good time with Megan, she's a sweety. But not as sweet as me. ♥

I hope you like your mixtape. & the thing I made you. & I'm glad you're my best friend. I ♥ you, sweety.

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Thu, 02 Sep 2004 06:52:25 GMT

Promote your communities/whatever here, kiddos <33333

Gracias :)

Fcuk.

Mon, 09 Aug 2004 18:04:24 GMT

comment & add me, jerkface ♥